Archive for September, 2007

School and Life

Tuesday, September 25th, 2007

You can really tell when you’re enjoying something when you don’t wake up dreading it. I realized this at the most random time today. I was in my Research & Writing for New Media class. I know, odd. That class is definitely not as bad as I expected it to be. It’s not my favourite class but I don’t mind it. I don’t think that’s what brought this realization to mind. I don’t know what it was that caused it, but that doesn’t matter. What I realized is that every morning when I wake up I am actually able to wake up and I’m not dreading what’s to come in the next few hours. And I was never one to really enjoy going to school but I think now that I’m in school for something that I actually want to learn about makes a huge difference. Even when I was working, I would wake up dreading to go to work and I would have such a hard time getting up in the morning. Now, when my alarm goes off, I don’t want to go back to sleep, even if I didn’t sleep really well.

The weird thing is that, even though I’m enjoying my classes so much, I’ve still been feeling rather depressed lately. There’s the usual reasons involved in that I guess. I almost feel like I’m going back in time. I’m starting to feel a lot the same as I did in high school emotionally. The only difference is that I’m actually enjoying the education part of college. I didn’t enjoy that part of high school. But I guess the important thing is that I am actually enjoying my education, even if
the stuff that’s happening outside of that isn’t all that great.

Winter’s Coming

Wednesday, September 19th, 2007

Ok, so my dad told me last night that it was supposed to snow last night. While I was driving back to Lethbridge I didn’t see a single flake, just chickens. But when I woke up this morning and looked out the window, the sky was cloudy and snow was falling. Oh, how I love Alberta!……. Yeah, no. I hate Alberta weather! It changes way too fast. I mean, it was HOT on Saturday and Sunday, then it was freezing cold and raining on Monday. It was still chilly yesterday but the sun came out a little bit. And today it’s snowing. It’s snowing pretty good now too. Good thing I’m not putting in the effort to straighten my hair or anything because it won’t stay straight once I get outside. I just hope it dries by the time I leave for class (I don’t have class until 2:00) so it doesn’t end up more frizzy than normal lol.

Anyways, I don’t know what else to say. I just don’t want it to be snowing yet. Although I do want to go snowboarding. I haven’t gone snowboarding in a a couple years.

I guess that’s all for now.

Oh, a quote from last night that was rather amusing, but I think I forgot to add it to the story lol. My dad and I were about to hang up and he said something about not really wanting to be talking to me on the phone while I’m driving and I said “It’s not that bad, I’m just driving on the highway and there’s no other vehicles, I’m just avoiding chickens.”

Yeah…

Anyways, I’m going to go make something for lunch.

Chicken Drive

Wednesday, September 19th, 2007

Ok, so I went back to Taber tonight for a few reasons.

  1. I needed to get some of my bake/cook ware (because I’m actually going to start cooking!!! Be afraid! lol) and my dad couldn’t get to Lethbridge.
  2. I thought my dad and I could have dinner together since my mom’s in GP for a few days.
  3. Kasz needed a ride home.
  4. And I was bored.

So I got home and sat in the living room with my laptop, working on my image library, for my graphic design class, while watching TV and visiting with Meeka and Sadie (they would randomly come up on the couch and stare at me until I gave them some attention, and then they’d go sit somewhere else). Then my dad and I went to Boston Pizza, where Kasz’s wife Brittany was our waitress and my dad kept talking and talking about random stuff to Brittany. Those of you who know my dad, know how much he likes to talk. Anyways, I have some left-overs from dinner! lol. Baked Three Cheese Penne, and Tai Chicken Bites!! Mmmmmmm!!!! Then my dad was smart (well, old…lol) and ordered a salad those Cactus Potato things, I forget what they’re actually called, when he meant to order potato skins. So he’s got lots of left-overs too, which I guess is good since he doesn’t cook much either, and my mom’s not back until like Thursday or Friday. So yeah.

Then I got my Corning Ware and my other baking dishes that I had and when I opened them, I found that the very last Corning Ware dish, that was in the bottom of the box was broken. I think it’s probably too late to exchange the set though because my grandparents bought it for me for my birthday. The date on the gift receipt is January 22, 2007. It sucks because I had never opened them I figured they’d be fine and they were just sitting in the basement waiting for me to move out. I wasn’t even planning to take them until I officially moved out, and I don’t even know when that will be. Frick. But I’m going to try and find out tomorrow if I’ll be able to exchange them or not. Not likely, but it’s worth a shot. So anyways, I got all my stuff into the van and headed back to Lethbridge. I stopped to get something from Amanda first though. Then I’m driving and just after I pass Barnwell (I don’t remember how far it really was past but it was a little ways) I see this white thing on the road. I assumed it was just garbage at first because I had already seen some, or at least I thought it was. But when I got closer and could actually see it in my headlights, I saw feet and realized that it was a chicken. Yes, a CHICKEN!!!! I was like “WHAT THE…?!?!?!?!?!?” It was so weird!!! It was just standing there. It was just outside the solid line. I couldn’t see it’s head or anything though. It was kinda freaky. Then about 30 seconds to a minute later there was another one, even closer to the lane and I could see this one’s head. Again, it was just standing there. I think they must have been confused because it was so dark since I was the only vehicle on that side of the high way so they didn’t go anywhere, or they were asleep, I’m not really sure lol. So I keep driving, still thinking about these two chickens…. and I was like, “k, I need to tell someone!!” I called my dad because I knew he’d still be up (it was about 10:30) and I’m telling him about these two chickens and then I see another one! This one appeared to be dead, it was stretched out on the ground. This one was off on the shoulder of the highway towards the end of the pavement. And I’m like all confused now because I was thinking originally that maybe there was a chicken farm nearby and the first two escaped, and I think that’s what my dad was thinking too because he said something about escapees or something. But this third one was quite a ways past the first two. Then, while we’re still talking, either just before or just after (I was so flustered by all these chicken’s I don’t remember exactly where I was lol) the bridge just past the McCain’s plant and there’s another one, clearly dead, right in the middle of the lane with blood smeared everywhere. Again, this one was quite a ways past the previous one. It was so weird. We decided on the theory that someone was delivering chickens somewhere and they were falling out of the truck lol. I still don’t know for sure if the first two were alive or not. They probably were, since they weren’t lying down lol. But it was the weirdest thing ever!! I still can’t get over it. I’ve never in my life seen chickens on the highway, without being in a truck lol. It was so weird!!! I thought I was going insane. And I see lots of dead animals on the highway, usually like rodent type animals, but not chickens. I should have stopped and tried to take one of the first two home as a pet lol. That would be funny!

But anyways, that’s my story for the night. I’m going to head to bed now, even though I don’t have class until 2:00 tomorrow.

Ttyl

Keira

Already Stressed

Wednesday, September 12th, 2007

I must have some like weird brain disorder or something. I get so stressed so easily and I don’t know why. Like the smallest thing seems to stress me out. Maybe it’s because I try to think about too much at once, or because I over complicate stuff. Probably both. But I mean this early into school I shouldn’t be as stressed as I’m feeling right now. I mean seriously. We started classes a week ago. We’ve only really actually been doing work in class since Monday (it’s Wednesday now). We did pretty much nothing last week, just orientation. I’m already feeling really stressed and I shouldn’t. I have a small 80 word assignment due tomorrow and some reading that I should have done by Monday. When I say it I think to myself, What’s the big deal?! Why am I feeling so overwhelmed? It just makes no sense to me why I’m feeling so stressed out. When I’m in class I’m fine but when I go back to my room in res, and I actually start thinking about what I need to do I just get this feeling of anxiety. An other people go out and party and or take care of their families or whatever, but I sit in my room all night panicking about one small assignment and end up doing absolutely nothing on it and I don’t understand why. When I was trying to read some stuff in a text book the other day I just could not focus on it. At first I thought it was because of the noises outside my room, from my roommates, which really wasn’t that bad. So I put on my iPod, which usually helps me. I used to do it all the time when the dogs were being loud and I’d be fine. But it just would not work. I read 4 pages and could not remember a single work I had just read 5 seconds after I’ve read it. This doesn’t happen all the time, but a lot of the time. I was constantly having this problem all through high school and even in elementary school, going right back to grade 1. And here I am in College, taking all courses that are actually interesting to me and I want to learn about, and I’m still having the exact same problem. I don’t understand it. It’s going to drive me insane, I swear.

New Chapter

Monday, September 10th, 2007

This is yet another fresh start for me. I’ve had two other WordPress Blogs (first was at lostinasong.net in 2006 and then fading-flowers.com in mostly in 2007). I’m starting over again because it was a pain in the but to try to import my old WordPress Posts and also because I’m working on a new personal/portfolio website for school and I wanted to move my blog to my new domain and to make it a bit more personal. I’m also starting a new chapter of my life as well. I’m starting college. I am taking Multimedia at Lethbridge College in Lethbridge, Alberta. I decided to take Multimedia mostly because I want to get into Web Design. I had originally wanted to take Web Design at Humber College in Toronto, but they wanted me to take their Multimedia program first anyway, and since I was living in Taber when I finished high school (although I did not graduate in Taber) I decided, with the help of my uncle, to take Multimedia at Lethbridge College. I am still hoping to take the web design program at Humber after I am finished at Lethbridge. Web design and programming has been my passion since the time I was first introduced to basic HTML in a grade 8 computer programming class at Sexsmith Secondary School in Sexsmith, Alberta. Although I only learned basic HTML in high school, that gave me enough knowledge to research online and start teaching myself. Having that basic understanding of HTML has really helped me learn quickly how designing and maintaining a website works. I taught myself CSS and in the last two years started learning PHP. I know a little bit of Javascript but haven’t really gotten into it as much yet as I have with CSS and PHP. Now that I am back in school and learning all of the stuff I already love, I will gain a better knowledge of all of this. I’m very excited to be back in school, mostly just for the fact that I am taking classes that I know I will enjoy. Not like in High School where we were forced to take specific classes, and because I went to a small high school I did not have the optional classes that would have helped me along the way to the career I want. But now that high school is in the past, I have, as I’ve already said, started a new chapter of my life.

Anyways, if you would like to know more about me, please take a look at the ‘about me’ pages, which I will have up and running shortly.

That is all for this today.