Archive for January, 2008

Baby Doll Gone Wrong

Monday, January 28th, 2008

Babydoll Gone Wrong
Performed by Skye Sweetnam

I am a new breed of doll
Psycho baby doll gone wrong
Tool belt with a lollipop
Curling iron klashnikof

I am a new breed of doll
Fighting for a brave new world
Gas mask and a magic wand
Bulldozer and tutu on

Load up, load up
March to the future
Lipstick, might kill ya or kiss ya
Babydoll gone wrong

She cries real tears!
In her bed at night
Press the button right
She will glow so bright

She bleeds real blood!
Cut her with a knife
She’ll fight for her life
But it’s you who dies

Surprise, surprise
Catch me can you steal a thief
Call my name can’t you see?
This babydoll’s not giving up!

I am a new breed of doll
Crash helmet and halo on
Jackhammer and my apron
Throw my head back, sing a song

I am a new breed of doll
Maize you with my aerosol
Tinkerbell and S&M
Bumper car that has a brain

Load up, load up
March to the future
Lipstick, I might kill ya or kiss ya
Babydoll gone wrong

She cries real tears!
In her bed at night
Press the button right
She will glow so bright

She bleeds real blood!
Cut her with a knife
She’ll fight for her life
But it’s you who dies

Surprise, surprise!
In her bed at night
Press the button right
She will glow so bright

She bleeds real blood!
Cut her with a knife
She’ll fight for her life
But it’s you who dies

Surprise, surprise

Babydoll, I’ll kick the boys and make them fall
Babydoll, I’ll kick the boys and make them fall

Sugar and a razor blade!
Acid pink lemonade!
That’s how babydolls are made
We misbehave, we misbehave!

Load up, load up
March to the future
Lipstick, I might kill ya or kiss ya
Babydoll gone wrong

She cries real tears!
In her bed at night
Press the button right
She will glow so bright

She bleeds real blood!
Cut her with a knife
She’ll fight for her life
But it’s you who dies

Surprise, surprise
In her bed at night
Press the button right
She will glow so bright

She cries real tears!
Cut her with a knife
She’ll fight for her life
But it’s you who dies

Surprise, surprise!

Written by Skye Sweetnam, Lauren Christy, Scott Spock, Graham Edwards

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National Champions

Sunday, January 20th, 2008

Those of you who know me personally, know that I used to figure skate. I started when I was 4. I quit when I was 15. It’s so weird to say it, but I can officially say that I have skated with national champion figure skaters!!

I skated with Cody Hay (from Grande Prairie, Alberta) in Sexsmith, Alberta for a couple dance tests. I passed them by the way lol. He came up to Sexsmith one year to skate with us for our tests. He also skated in our carnival that year with his old pairs partner, Daelyn something-or-other. Now he’s skating with Annabelle Langlois. She’s gone through a few partners in the last few years. How Cody ended up with her, I have no idea. The first time I heard of them together, was last year. But this year, they won the National Championships!!

Going back even farther, I used to skate in Ilderton, Ontario with Scott Moir and Tessa Virtue! Before I moved to Alberta, that is. I remember every year at the carnivals, they always performed, along with Danny and Sherry Moir who also competed in the National Senior dance competition a few years ago, but they didn’t do as well as Scott and Tessa have. I haven’t heard anything about them in a few years. But Scott and Tessa are close to my age and I used to see them all the time, although they probably never knew who I was. I have been on the ice at the same time as them though. I actually tripped over Scott at my last carnival in Ilderton (2001). The theme was The Little Mermaid. He did a solo right before my group went on, and when we went out he was standing in an awkward spot so that none of us had much room to get by him, and I tripped over him. I didn’t fall, I just stumbled, but still. Now when I think about it, it was funny, but at the time I was embarrassed because I thought he was really cute. I’ve been trying to keep track of them over the last few years to find out how they’re doing. I haven’t watched figure skating in a while but I’ve been trying to watch the nationals this year and I got to see most of it. I’ve been watching it all weekend. It was so exciting seeing Scott and Tessa skate today, even though it wasn’t live and I already knew they had won. They were also the Junior World Champions in 2006.

It’s kind of weird how right after I quit figure skating I didn’t miss it at all, and I stopped watching it as well. But in the last year or so I’ve started to miss it a little bit. It’s worse when I’m watching it too. I’m missing it quite a bit right now because it’s on the TV as I’m typing this. Plus, on top of that, and not helping at all, when my grandparents were down here my Nana kept talking about skating and how I should get back into it and stuff and it was making me angry. The worst part is though, that I know if I was to try to get back into it I wouldn’t get very far. I got to a point where I wasn’t getting any better and it wasn’t fun anymore. That’s why I quit. Before I quit I was getting so frustrated with it, and I remember one day, well more than one day, I was so determined to land a certain jump that I went to one end of the ice by myself and just did that jump over and over and over. I wanted it so bad. I was having such a hard time with it and I don’t even know why. All the kids that I skated with were all younger than me, except for one, and a lot of them were way better than me. They were landing more difficult jumps, their spins were way better than mine, and some were on higher level dances than me. Although, with dance I was doing pretty well, although all my dances, I just barely passed. I got satisfactory on everything. That’s all I’ve ever gotten. The only thing I ever failed was my skills test, the second one, whatever level that is. I don’t even know why I took it. I knew I wasn’t ready for it. I think I probably felt pressure to take it. I think the only good thing I got out of skating in Sexsmith was that I improved my spins a fair bit. They weren’t great, but they were a lot better than when I left Ilderton.

If I was to go back into it, I would have some physical things to over come. First, I have knee and joint problems. Mainly my right knee, but I have had issues with other joints. But I think the thing that would help me the most would be to lose some weight, ok, a fair bit of weight. I really hate though how when I tell someone that I need to lose weight, they always tell me that I don’t. It’s only the people who don’t know how much I weight that say that. Not many people actually know how much I weigh though. I really hate how much I weigh. It’s a fair bit more than I look. I would have to really start working out or something to get there. I do want to start working out but I don’t know how to start. And I’m very lazy. Especially with school; when I’m not in class I just feel like doing nothing.

Anyways, I keep getting distracted by the TV so I’m just going to stop typing now. I should make something to eat, and eventually do the dishes, if Katelyn doesn’t get to them first. It’s kind of impossible to use the sink or the stove right now. I hate it. I hate this stupid apartment thing. It’s so crappy!!

Anyways…yeah…

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Industry Dominated by Men

Friday, January 18th, 2008

Last semester, when I was taking Multimedia, the program leader, Leanne (the only female multimedia instructor),would talk about how Multimedia and other technology fields are dominated by men. They usually had at least 65% guys in the program.

It seems to be the same with CIT. It seems to be that way with any technology industry. It became really obvious to me when I realize the high percentage of guys in some of my classes this term. I’m getting a different look at it this term because I have different people in all of my classes. In Multimedia, because it’s such a small program, we were all in the same classes together.

I really noticed it on Wednesday in my Marketing class. Even though it’s a business class, the majority of us are in the CIT program and more than that are guys. We were broken into 7 groups of four to do a case study. At least one group for sure was all guys. The rest only had one girl. So at the most there are only 6 girls in that class.  There might only be 5 because I didn’t really get a good chance to look at every group but I know I saw, for sure, one group of all guys.

In my Computer Hardware Maintenance class there are only three girls, including myself, out of a total of 13, I believe.

My accounting class sort of goes along with this, but it isn’t the best example. I’m pretty sure that I’m the only one in CIT in that class, and there are I think 4 or five girls out of about 25 or so. I remember the first day, it was kind of odd. We took up three rows. The two back rows were all guys and the front row was all girls, and we didn’t even fill up the whole row. The class has gotten smaller since then, but when we were all introducing ourselves (which was getting really annoying because I had to do that in every class, in multimedia we only had to do it once), every single guy was in agriculture and from a farm in either Saskatchewan, Alberta, or BC. It was so weird. I think some of the girls were from farms too. Whether they were in agriculture or not, I don’t remember.

My Intro to Management class is much larger than the others. We’re in a theatre instead of a classroom. I don’t know the numbers, but there has to be over 40. I’d say about 70% guys.

Even my Business Writing class has a higher number of guys. There were only three girls in class today. But there weren’t many there anyway. I’m guessing there’s about 25 people in the class, but there was probably 15 there today.

Well, that concludes yet another random blog post. I’m going to go curl up in bed. I’m really cold but my room is still warm. It got up to 26 degrees today, even though my thermostat is set for 15. I can’t figure out why it’s doing this. I kept my door open for a few hours to help even out the temperature, and I even opened my window. It’s quite cold outside right now. It’s got to be about -10 because my van didn’t want to start but I did get it to start. I think it’s the coldest it’s been all winter because it’s the hardest it’s been for me to start the van.

Anyways, I guess that is all.

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…and another one…

Friday, January 18th, 2008

And again, I still don’t know why I bother doing these things because I have them, but I did another one…

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Labels and Connections

Monday, January 14th, 2008

It’s so weird to think that I only have 16 days (well, less than now since the current day is almost over) left of being a teenager. In 16 days I won’t be able to call myself a teenager anymore. And, well, people can’t call me a teenager anymore. You gotta love when people say things like how teenagers are immature and stupid, etc. It’s like you get put under some stereotype just because your age ends in “teen” (starts with the number 1, depending on whether you’re speaking it/spelling it, or writing the number itself lol).

I have enjoyed some of the freedoms of  being a teenager of course, but at the same time, once you’re past that, it’s kind of like you have to grow up. Maybe that’s why I’ve always thought 20 was a strange number. I don’t really know. Ever since I was little I’ve always thought of the age of twenty as being kind of weird. It sounded so weird to me. It still does, but as I get closer to that number it’s not feeling quite so weird. But, again, I am kind of sad that I won’t be able to call myself a teenager anymore.

I have always been somewhat more mature than a lot of people my age, and a lot of people have thought that I am older than I am, including people who I am now friends with. I think the oldest anyone has told me that they thought I was, was 24 (Dave: when we worked at Wal-Mart). Then at the same time I had people telling me that they thought that I was 16 or 17. Some of them didn’t realize that I was older than that until I started working random day shifts (when my Fabrics department manager was sick for so long). Some didn’t even know until I started working in Electronics because I had always been working evening shifts when I was in Fabrics, unless my department manager was sick. Electronics was 9-5 every day.

Now, that I won’t be a teenager anymore, maybe people will respect me a little more. I’ve never really felt like people respected me. I don’t know for sure if it’s because I’m a teenager, and they’re just stereotyping me, or not, but that’s how I’ve felt for a very long time. At the same time it’s also felt like my own peers don’t respect me. Not just people who are older than me. I had actually thought that going to college, I would feel more equal to my fellow students, but I still don’t feel like it. I mean it has been easier, but I actually tend to feel more comfortable with the people who are older than me and who already have life experience. I think I’m drawn to them because they are much more mature than people my age. I feel like I get along with them better and that they actually genuinely like me. For some reason I don’t always feel like people my own age like me very much. Maybe it’s because I’m on a different maturity level. I don’t know. But I do know that I am rambling so I’ll change the subject.

As some of you know, I haven’t really gotten to know my roommate very well, but it looks like things might, possibly change. I hope so anyway! Yesterday, Cara came over so put some pictures onto my computer, and then we decided to go out for dinner. When we were leaving, my roommate was just getting back from shopping or whatever. We met at the bottom of the stairs. I asked her if she wanted to come out for dinner with us and she actually said yes! I was really surprised but really glad that she did! We found out that she’s from Red Deer and she’s in Nursing. I’m so glad that I finally know something about her! Before, people would ask me about her and all I could say was “Her name is Katelyn and she has blond hair.” But she died her hair over Christmas. She has brown hair now lol. But then, when we got back she went right back in her room and locked the door. It was weird. She still does that. But I think maybe taking her out for dinner was a start. Hopefully she’ll open up a bit. This morning she actually had her bedroom door somewhat open when we were getting ready for class and whatnot. Usually her door is always shut. So I guess that’s a change. But I really hope she opens up a bit more now, because from what I can tell, she doesn’t have any friends here. She never has anyone come over or anything. And she doesn’t seem to go home on weekends very often either. But she talks on the phone a lot (I usually hear her talking on the phone pretty much very night).

Oh, and something even more interesting, that I found out today. Someone else who graduated from Sexsmith Secondary School in 2006 is going to Lethbridge College!! I’m so excited. I was walking from my Intro to Management class to my Business Writing class today and I walked right past Brittney S. I couldn’t believe that I would see anyone from my high school at LC. I didn’t stop her in the hall because it was super crowded, and I was going to be late for class, because I have to go from the IB building all the way to the end of the Andrews building. Ok, it’s not really that far, but I normally like to get to classes earlier and I only have 10 minutes between then. But anyways, I sent Brittney a message on Facebook after class because I wanted to know for sure if it was her, and it was. I’m so excited about it. I mean it’s not like we were close friends or anything in high school but we knew each other, we had classes together. It meant there were only 84 students in our graduating class lol. Yeah, so hopefully we can get together and hang out at some point.

Anyways, I’m going to try to get my Computer Hardware Maintenance homework done. I was going to straighten my hair but I’ll do it in the morning. I’m so tired! These 8:00 classes are so bad! But at the same time so good! lol. Anyways, that’s all for now.

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Wacko!

Friday, January 4th, 2008

I don’t normally watch videos on YouTube. I mean I know people who send hours upon hours just surfing YouTube, and I’ve never done that or felt the urge to. But every once in a while I come across something that I find interesting or stupid or whatever. I don’t think I would have come across this except that I was reading a friend’s blog and he had posted a video by this guy who clearly has some sort of obsession with Britney Spears. I had actually seen one of the videos by this guy before, the “Leave Britney Alone” video (click here to watch). When I had first seen it I actually thought that it was a chick. I found out later that it was a guy. Anyways, my friend was talking about this video and I found it rather amusing (click here to read the post). And I just started watching some of the other wacked out videos that this Chris Crocker guy has posted. There is seriously something wrong with him! I mean first of all, he looks like a woman. But I really think he needs some help. Major help!!! Here’s one that I thought was really quite wacked, entitled The Secret.

And the way he sounds at the beginning when he says “Hello” is just really creepy!!

Oh, and check out his YouTube page! OMG!!

Also, in half of his videos, he’s wearing thick eyeliner, eyeshadow, and bright pink lipstick. I think he’s a little more than gay!!

(I’ll probably keep adding random comments on here. I’m still watching some of his videos lol)

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Runaway

Thursday, January 3rd, 2008

“Runaway”

Graffiti decorations
Under a sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
The lessons that you taught me
I learn were never true
Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

Paper bags and angry voices
Under a sky of dust
Another wave of tension
Has more than filled me up
All my talk of taking action
These words were never true
Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

I’m gonna run away and never say goodbye
(Gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)
I’m gonna run away and never wonder why
(Gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)
I’m gonna run away and open up my mind
(Gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

I wanna run away
And open up my mind
I wanna run away
And open up my mind
I wanna run away
And open up my mind
I wanna run away
And open up my mind

By Linkin Park
Album: Hybrid Theory

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New Years 2008

Tuesday, January 1st, 2008

Well, happy freakin new year every body! Whether that’s good or bad… you decide, because I really don’t want to!

Ok, so New Years 2007 wasn’t that great. I thought maybe, just maybe, 2008 would be better. Well, I won’t say that I was completely wrong, but it wasn’t as great as I was hoping it would be. Although, it did end up somewhat how I expected it to, with many other things that I did not expect.

When Amanda, Danielle and I were hanging out at their place it was fine. Then Cara and two of her roommates came and then we went to the Oilmens and things went down hill from there. First, there was still smoking in there so it was really bad for me to be in there in the first place. Plus, it was super crowded, there was constantly someone touching some part of you, mostly in the ass area.

I ended up leaving not long after midnight. I felt so nasty because of the smell of smoke, alcohol, and BO that had embedded itself in every layer I was wearing: hoodie, t-shirt, tank top, and bra, jeans, underwear, and socks, and my hair. I couldn’t believe that my dad couldn’t smell it on me in the truck when he picked me up, it was so friggen strong!! I had to change in the laundry room so I wouldn’t have to pile it all on my bed before I took it to the laundry room. Then I sprayed my hair with body spray because I had nothing else in my bathroom that smelled good and could spray. It was either that or go in the shower when my grandparents were asleep upstairs. I had a shower and washed my clothes and pillow case in the morning. Hopefully I got rid of all the smells. My belt didn’t seem to smell too bad so I didn’t do anything to it lol.

Anyways, later today I found out what else happened after I left. Since at the moment, I don’t know who will end up reading this or when, I won’t name any names….

Most got really really drunk, apparently one worse than others. Four out of five walked back to Danielle’s house. Someone called someone they had no business calling, especially at 3:00 in the morning, for reasons they think they know but they really don’t. Someone left a very inappropriate note on the fridge. Someone clearly tried to erase the note, but didn’t really do a good job of it, because it was still legible when I saw it later in the afternoon. The same four that left the bar early drove to Lethbridge at 3 or 4 in the morning, none of which were completely sober. Someone is not happy about that (and neither am I!). There were phone calls made, apparently including yelling. And people are mad at and/or scared of people. And one, apparently, doesn’t remember anything.

I’m sure I left some things out but you get the gist of it.

There is so much more going on underneath this whole situation and it’s not very good. I’m trying to stay out of it as much as I can, because I’m not really a part of it, but it’s really hard.

It seems as though my life revolves around my friends fighting and being mad at each other. I should really just stop making friends. I mean frick! The same thing always happens! Different situations and people, but the same basic concept. It’s starting to get really old, and it’s really starting to piss me off!!

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